a sliver of gleaming white gold,
my favourite.
a deep blue gem like the midnight sky,
two glittering stars beside it,
also my favourites.
it doesn't fit so well
thus causes an uneasy feeling
as though i may lose it at any time.
supposedly the ring is a symbol-
maybe i read too far into it
and analyze too much.
it feels too generous for me, the ring,
i didn't really earn it.
i look into his shining, smiling eyes of blue and green,
another of my favourites,
and i wonder what i did,
what sort of trap did i build, did i trap him?
what sort of lies did i tell, did i tell lies?
the loose band wiggles up and down my finger
and i wonder just how permanent it is-
his feelings, will they fade?
unlike the ring, but the ring may be lost-
will he lose his affection?
will i wake up one day and wonder where they've been placed?
while my own feelings have a strong sense of firmness....
he did give me the ring.

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